Friday, November 2, 2007

Things I Don't Understand

At some point in everyone's life, they come upon things that, no matter how they try to wrap their brain around them, they simply will not understand. It's not that these things are necessarily mind-bogglingly complex. They can be quite simple, on the surface. But for some reason, they just don't "click." There is a disconnect in there somewhere; if only you could find it and change it, everything would be better somehow. I guess that is our nature as humans, as we strive to make the world a better place for us. In order to achieve this lofty goal that we have set for ourselves, we need to first fix the little things in our life. But, what if it is one of those "little things" that has become an incomprehensible mess in your life. Something that, yesterday seemed so tiny and harmless, but now has become something more. Something that changes from day to day, almost hour to hour at times. First everything is fine and dandy, there's flowers and butterflies in the air. It looks like something out of a Norman Rockwell painting. The next thing you know, the dark clouds have rolled in, the storms of emotion rage, and things can never be the same again. But, as sudden as they came, they roll out again.

The thing that I don't understand is not PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). The thing that I don't understand is why everyone sees it but the person that needs to.